When I go out for a nice dinner, I don’t ask the chef to outline everything he does to bring my dish to the table. When I have had surgery in the past I have not asked the physician to describe every detail of the operation. I had to take some or all of it on faith.
So, why would I demand a full accounting from God and demand the “why” for things that happen to me and refuse to accept “what is”? When my husband died I could have called God on the carpet and demanded to know why? Why did he let Tom die? Why didn’t he intervene? Why now? I could have gone on and on with those why questions. How childlike my questions are in the face of the complicated issues of life with which God deals every day. Even if God chose to explain it all to me I doubt I would be able to understand it.
Then it occurred to me one day that even if I knew the answers to all my questions, it wouldn’t change the “what is” and in that situation, it was that Tom was gone. I was a widow. My life had changed forever. So I started thinking about surrendering the “why’s” to God and ask him to help me accept the “what is” of my life.
If I can let go of the why, can’t I move just a bit farther and trust that no matter what it was or what it “cost” me, God has always had my good in mind? Then, maybe I can nudge a little bit farther and accept the “what is” as the ideal place for me at this season, this year, this day, this hour of my life.
Father knows the end from the beginning. I can trust him with all the in-betweens.
The Lord is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
2 He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
3 He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.
4 Even when I walk
through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff
protect and comfort me.
5 You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
6 Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the Lord
Psalm 23 (NLT)