DISCLAIMER: This is my personal account of my personal struggle and not intended to be a commentary on the habits of others. This is the coach coaching the coach!
This is an issue I struggled with for a while . . . spending too much time either in front of the tube or at least listening to it throughout my house. As time passed I found I was scheduling my life around it. At the same time I began to realize the level of personal satisfaction with life was ebbing. While I continued to find work rewarding and energizing, I found the energy quickly drained through my personal habits.
Honestly it took a while to dawn on me what was actually happening. Although I can help clients identify destructive patterns in their lives and develop strategies for change, well . . . I guess this thing was just too close.
It took months to realize I was:
- Watching more TV and enjoying it less.
- Losing sleep because of television.
- Developing a sense of guilt and shame.
Number three was the beginning of what turned into weeks of contemplating the pros and cons of change and getting up the nerve to actually doing it. That’s when a light went on! What I was experiencing was the development of an addiction. The signs of that being true in my life were these:
- I was spending more and more time alone and didn’t care.
- Often I was thinking about what the daily schedule.
- Putting off things to watch TV.
- Loss or sense of well-being.
- Loss of creativity.
I wasn’t at peace and happy. Before, I was creative, writing, painting and expressing my inner joy. I had even published a couple of books. I was energized about helping others. I had a strong faith in God. I still do! So what happened?
The answer to this question was more complex than I thought. Through this series of articles I will explore the process of deciding to pull the plug on TV and the resulting changes.
COLD TURKEY! As of 11:30 a.m. on June 9th the cable service was discontinued at my house. The feeling of euphoria was tremendous. I was doing this thing. There was no turning back now. I could make this change. I would make this change! The drive home was exciting. But the first thing I did when I walked in the door was look at where the cable box/DVR USED to be to check the time! A sense of uneasiness crept into my mind. What had I gotten myself in to?